This world can break my heart sometimes. It's in those moments, when the tears fall too easily and my heart throbs, that I realize I'm a mess.
I recently volunteered to give my testimony at one of our church's Ladies' Meetings for the month of July. I've been praying for God's help because I'm terrified. I'm afraid to stand and speak before these ladies who know who I am today, but aren't acquainted with the broken child I once was.
I've been praying for grace and a clear mind. I need it desperately because dealing with my past has never been easy for me. It's filled with a lot of hurt and heartbreak. But each year that I work on those issues, there comes a breaking point where God reminds me that He is Healer, Warrior, King, Father, and Comforter. And my heart is once again healed.
I was praying early this morning and I told God, "I'm just a mess." He gently replied, "Jessi, you are a BEAUTIFUL mess."
We are all broken, but God takes our brokenness and makes something beautiful out of it if we let Him.
So, on July 7th, I'm going to let God take my brokenness--the ashes of my early life--and make a crown of beauty out of them.
I don't plan on being terrified because I know that I am a BEAUTIFUL mess.
Your brokenness has made you the kind compassionate person you are today. I think one the the best things that came out of my car wreck and other life challenges is my compassion for others. I needed to go to Celebrate Recovery to pull apart the car wreck pieces to be able to deal with them. Wish I could come hear you but I will be in Texas visiting family
ReplyDeleteJanie, let's grab coffee and I'll share my testimony with you!
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